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Letters to Lost Lovers
Sometimes we don’t get the closure we need. We live our lives, but the things we need to say often don’t get said. It’s not always possible- or even a good idea- to contact everyone and get those words out. Sometimes, the best thing we can do is write it in a journal or write a letter that will never be sent. We can get the feelings out rather than keeping them in, and this can help us to feel a sense of peace to move on.
I decided to write out the things I would say, to a variety of different people in my life, in this #LetterstoLostLovers . This is what I needed to say. What would you say if you could?
Dear You, It’s been too long since we last spoke. Maybe you would say it’s not been long enough. How long will it take for your anger to fade to the hurt that it’s hiding? I want to say that I’m sorry, and I am sorry that you’re hurting. But why do I feel a need to apologize at all for the way that you broke us? I wish I didn’t love you still. But I do.
Dear You, I don’t know why I still want to reach out. After all, it’s been long enough that I shouldn’t even think of you. You’ve moved on. Why can’t I?
Dear You, Sometimes I think about us, and I’m still angry. I will go months not caring about you at all, and then the anger will creep up sharply over something innocuous. Why is forgiveness such a constant practice? Why can’t I…